sleep

it's all I want to do. Sleep. Just sleep, sleep and sleep and sleep. Maybe when I wake up everything will be okay.

I wish.

it won't.

Sometimes I pray, so hard. that I just won't wake up.  I fear I'm going crazy. It looks so funny to See it here. Supposadly if you think your crazy you aren't. I'm not so sure.

It's funny how much pain is twisted in sleep. I fear sleep so often because of the dreams. But when things are so hard, it's all I want.

I wish I had magic words.

I wish I had some sort of power to make time go backwards.

I wish I had better sense.

I wish I had so many things.

I wish I had someone to talk to.

wishing doesn't get you anywhere.

neither does praying it seems

okay.. so I'm like.. IN NEW YORK CITY!! does this sound like kimmie at ALL?? I"m really happy though, everything seems to be working out wonderfully. I spent the day with Kev and we ordered pizza and watched cartoons. He's like a minature of his father, very cute. I brought bilbo, and will post some pictures of bilbo's visit to NY. Today I mostly rested, it was nice though, I'll go out and see the city soon.

okay.. so I didn't die

and I don't have cancer

I did have the worst week ever at the hospital

mostly through my own fault

sometimes life truely sucks

and sometimes it does not

I'm okay.. whole and in one peice

I'm not allowed to get up.. but.. I'm not dying either and next week I will probably be able to get up.

I pee all the time.. I know.. everyone wanted to know that.. but the difference is really amazing.

i'm trying to deal with things. I hope I can keep it up. I need to.. not just for everyone else, but for me as well.

Currently Playing The Collection By Kim Richey see related

I really think I'm dying.

I have this stupid cold.. I cough so hard I can't breathe. My whole body feels so wierd. I am so so cold. I wish I could get warm.. *whineeee*

I can't think of anything else to write right now.

perhaps more tommorrow.

okay.. I'm like an utter moron.. I guess I took my pills twice this morning?

which is strange.. I felt okay.. I painted.. and took a walk.. and raked.. then when I got in the shower.. oh boy.. dizzy.. lightheaded.. hey where the hell did my fingers go?

makes for an interesting shower experience.. let me tell you

uhmmm

I don't think I have much else to say today

I'm tired now.. bye bye